the art of self-taming

I was a stone, hurtling through a shopwindow

I was the motherly impulse in a black widow

 

darkness whispered in my head, about divine justice

crushing ideas to bits, into dry powdery numbness

 

I was thorns, around perfumed roses

I was venom, poison in small doses

 

a wild beast flinching from every touch

hissing and spitting, I lunge if it’s too much

 

I was silence, when the world exploded

I was secret, behind safe doors closed

 

day by day feeding on dread and confusion

a light, that blinded me into recurrent delusion

 

I was reality, without a dream clutched

I was a butterfly’s wing too often touched

 

at the edge of my world, hoping for a rescue party

in my scarred hide – I’m fed up with being sorry